Year: 2008

What a wonderful word

I’m sitting in a great little coffee shop in Ainsworth NE. Just had a large, no foam, latte and a wheat cinnamon scone right out of the oven. I know I said I was going to unplug for 10 days but I had to send a file to the office and decided to clean up some email and look at facebook. I can’t help myself. Besides cleaning out the inbox halfway through makes me worry less about the volume of mail when I get back in the office in a week.

I’ve been in Ainsworth with nothing to do for 3 full days and have caught up on sleep but I can’t seem to shut off my brain. There is always something to think about and when I try to get quiet they my mind gets noisy.

I really love being back up here and hanging with old friends and catching up with my brother and his kids. They are so tall! We played music until about midnight last Friday and were going to play again tonight in preparation for New Years eve. I’m going to lead 4 or 5 songs. It should be a lot of fun.

I’m going to try to unplug agian and finish “The Appeal”. I used to love Grisham but the last few have been week. This one is ok but nowhere near the early ones and he has injected politics, I hate that. Just tell the story without taking shots.

Ok done ranting :-), I’ll be back on the 5th. I forgot my power chord so this will probably be the last entry until then.

Bless you all.

It’s been quite a year. I know I should be doing something like Rush does and leave you with something profound. The truth is I’m beat. I’m ready for 2008 to go away and ready for a new season.

I will be unplugging for about the next 10 days. Going to Nebraska to hang out with family and rest up. Hopefully find a few pheasants, play some music with friends and family, and watch a lot of football. O yes and help my mother in law get rid of all the Christmas candy, cake, cookies etc. etc. etc. She loves me, what can I say?

Thank you for reading and commenting. It makes it a lot more fun.

See you the week of the 5th.

Blessings, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year.

My friend Chuck over at Big God Adventures has articulated what is in my heart. I need a challenge something to fight for. I think a big reason for the funk I’ve been battling is because I need something to fight for.

Yearning for the Wild

I’ve been thinking about how tame i am. i work in a cool office. live in a great, comfortable house. have heat and ac in house, car and work.

But something in me wants a fight. i want to run with scissors or climb up on the roof or drive in a blinding snowstorm or play tackle football in a mudpit. i need something untamed.

I’ve read Wild at Heart and know that as a man, i need a battle. I’m reading a book on the wild Jesus from the book of Mark. but there’s something deeper than just reading books.

there is a true craving to roar like a man. Any woman reading this probably won’t understand, hopefully the men will. there is something primal that needs to come out. Playing music helps to release that. As a bass player/singer, there is definitely something wild about that rumble of the bass and a good yell or scream.

I think i need some man-time. some camping and hiking, growing a neck beard, finding and cooking your food over a flame. anyone have an empty cabin i could hide away for a few days in? anyone up for some gut-level living? strength, passion, honesty – that’s what i’m looking for.

Big God Adventures: Yearning for the Wild